31st December 2025, phew.  Tak sure lah why nak rasa terrified, whether the reason is the fact that I’m going to be 25 next year (or kalau ikut my math, that's technically 30!!!) or my fears with what next year had kept in store for me.  Macam biasa la ayat cliche setiap tahun but really, … Continue reading Closing Another Chapter By His Decree →

Quick update: I am a teacher now. In the months following my graduation, my life has changed. The weight of newness felt so, so heavy. The unfamiliar tasks, the sea of new faces, the pressure of finding my new identity kat tempat baru. Adulting has truly settled in. And I'm still figuring everything out.  Even … Continue reading Finding Myself as a (New) Teacher. →

Life may be a series of undulating lines, but I believe it might lead us somewhere. It led me to now; another layer of becoming an adult. Dari dulu I have always been a high achiever, a goal getter, sang pemburu impian indeed. I used to believe life needed to be this vibrant mix of … Continue reading So, What’s Next? →

It's funny how life can change in a blink of an eye. I love looking at my Instagram's archive and scrolling through my old photos kat gallery. Rindu. "Seriously, benda ni tiga bulan lepas?!" while tengok gambar kat menara Loq Staq. "I wish time could slow down." while tengok video staycation dengan classmates. I love … Continue reading To Find the Good in Goodbye →

Hi people, how are you? Thank you for still reading my blog haha. Whether you're new, or have been here since my first ever post, thank you. I went MIA for a few months, but here I am. These past few months have been an emotional rollercoaster ride for me! But now, happy sebab dah … Continue reading Metamorphosis →

It may seem to take forever, to find what youre searching for. Upon finding what you may think you were in search of, you may be greeted with bitter disappointment, and other depressing negatives. Even if, time and time again you break to the extent where theres nothing left of you left… I assure you, … Continue reading Seek and You Shall Find →

Sometimes, my best thoughts whisper when the lights are dim, when my head rests upon a pillow and my legs elevated. Sometimes, the never ending streamline of uncertainties keeps me awake at night. Tonight is one of the nights. To think of— apa nak buat when ibu ayah dah takde nanti (which I dont think … Continue reading The Unknowns →

I found my old journals back from 2011 till 2018 and marveled at how some of them were very meaningful to me, despite how immature I deemed myself back then. Ahhh. So thankful that the little Anis expressed her feelings and thoughts by writing them down on papers, because well, Im able to read them … Continue reading Here’s to New Beginnings! →

I remember back when I was six, I was sprawled weak, sandar against the passenger seat sebelah ayah. My tonsils were so inflamed, anyone could see the bump on my neck. But I was busy looking out the window, eyebrows furrowed, seriously thinking, then asking ayah, "Kalau doktor sakit, doktor tu boleh rawat diri sendiri … Continue reading Train of Thoughts →

Dear you, Im checking in on you today and if no one has asked you, let me be the first to ask, How are you? How are you feeling? How are you coping with everything so far? How is everything at home? All is good? Are you okay? If you havent answered me yet, then … Continue reading A Letter to the Tired Souls →